Day 13: Motivation

GOAL: STEP ON THE TREADMILL
STATUS: COMPLETE

I walked for 0.1 miles for 5:14.

I did not want to step on the treadmill today. I did not want to walk today. Nothing about either of those things appealed to me.

I did them anyway.

I wanted to stop at 1:27.

I didn't.

At 3:36, I kept asking myself, "Are we there yet?"

Every step was a drudgery.

At 5:14, I finally stopped. 

You know why?

Well, to be honest, because the number of miles read 0.1.

I guilted, shamed, cajoled, wheedled, bribed, and pulled out all the rest of my mental and emotional bag of tricks to just make it to 0.1 miles. I already feel pathetic. I wanted to avoid the black hole of failing to make that milestone.

So I draaaaaaaaagged every part of my spirit, mind, and body through EVERY. SINGLE. STEP.

I thought I'd NEVER finish...

I remembered having a conversation with a friend (different friend from earlier posts, if you must know) about the difference between motivation and determination.

People who work on their goals only when they feel motivated shortchange themselves--they work on their goals less than half the time they could.

People who are determined work on their goals nearly ALL the time.

Today, I definitely was NOT motivated.

Jury's still out on how determined I am.

*crickets*

You want to find out?

Well, so do I...

(To Be Continued...)

NUMBER OF CONSECUTIVE DAYS WALKED: 0013
TOTAL NUMBER OF DAYS WALKED: 0013
TOTAL TIME WALKED: 80:44
TOTAL MILES WALKED: 1.4
MILES TO GO: 998.6 OUT OF 1000
TIME TO GOAL AT CURRENT PACE: 27 YEARS 124 DAYS 6 HOURS
TIME TO GOAL AT AVERAGE PACE: 25 YEARS 141 DAYS 11 HOURS 8 MINUTES 34 SECONDS